So here I am - Four days after my complete surrender - and am humbled to say not only am I turning to God more and more, but I find myself LISTENING more - taking it in!! Wow! I am physically tired, but that is okay - I know the reasons for that - I am spiritually on fire! I am not as hungry. I have ice cream at home that I am not eating - I am not obsessing. Thank you, Lord. Thank you.
I was speaking with my sister last week - she is going through significant problems in her life right now. I have known for a long time that the answer for her is a personal relationship with Christ. On Sunday that became very real to me. I have always been quick with advice and slow to listen - thinking I understood - because, the Lord knows there have been quite a few trials and struggles that I have had to overcome or get through in my short 34 years - but I can't think back to anything that has owned me like this.
My heart breaks for addicts, but at the same time I have always been of the school of "buck up" stand up - do what needs to be done, join a class and get over it already!! Easier said than done. I worked with addicts for seven years - minuscule amount of time I know - but a lot of time in other ways. Even during that time - I loved them - commiserated, but still felt like if they would just "work the program" they would get "it". Wow - not so right. Yes, you do have to bottom out - I did on Sunday - yes - you do need a support group - I have that, too, just not a formal one - although I highly recommend AA for those suffering from alcoholism or alanon for those that are friends or family members to help better understand the addict's thinking and reasoning -- but I think I now realize it all comes down to heart. Some say just do the work and the heart will follow - yeah, sometimes it does - and I can argue that here - I've done the "work" but it has required my heart - Now I stand here with my heart wide open waiting on God to change, mold and work in me. I am thrilled, excited, and eagerly awaiting what is to come. I know he has BIG plans for me and my family. Look at all that has already happened and what testimonies there are from it! God has provided EXACTLY who and what we have needed EXACTLY when and where we have needed it - from my childhood on up to now.
My grandfather says my son will be a preacher because he (my grandfather feels that calling on his life) I don't know if that is how it works, but I know that Little Man Tate has a true heart for God - and the girls - they LOVE SO MUCH!! I am THRILLED to be their mother!! We have our days - no one is perfect - my girls argue and make ugly faces at each other and the 9 year old girl and my 5 year old son insist on egging each other on to the point that the other day I told them if they couldn't work together and respect each other's things and spaces I was tying them together with a bandanna around their wrists and they would have to stay that way all day. Wow - what a difference in my home!! May not have been perfect parenting - didn't have to do it, but they considered their options and have chosen to get along - and so far it hasn't come back up as an option because the truce has lasted!
All this to say - I am learning not to be so hard on myself or others - that when offering advice to my sister and she throws back "oh yeah - where is all this coming from? I know you have down days?" I can hope she continues to see that yeah - down days, but not days of total despair because my hope resides in the Lord!! No matter what - everything will work out for my good - even if the now is bad - Romans 8:28. I know family is the last to listen. I just hope my life is LOUD ENOUGH EVEN WHEN...............................................
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Monday, September 29, 2008
FireProof
This weekend I was able to go see the new movie by the makers of Facing the Giants. FireProof was a great reminder of not letting relationships be taken for granted and not letting those around us get too close if we are not married to them. Too often what can begin innocently satan can use to deceive, seperate, and devise. Wow. This movie covered it all and in such a great professional way. I was very impressed with the humor and acting (and not just because it was Kirk Cameron - the second Michael J. Fox of the 80's era).
Sitting in the theatre filled with people trying to find seats for a non-secular movie was great in and of its self, but then the movie began. It had me from "hello". I laughed, almost cried, was reminded of things I have been through or things friends have been through and of things I KNOW I don't want to go through. You know? So hard. This movie deals with marital infidelity through Internet porn, materialism, flirtation, selfishness, lack or respect, complete disregard for one another, and love only for self. Ultimately it deals with each person's relationship with Christ. It hits each of these subjects head on - does not back away or pussyfoot around. I really appreciated the message and what I took away.
I have never had a marriage that has suffered due to Internet or any other porn, but have known those that have. My marital restoration was from alcoholism. Not only was my marriage restored, but each of us have grown as Christians - in HUGE ways from having dealt with that issue. We have not had infidelity - but my mom dealt with that and I know its sting and am probably more aware than most of both people's roles in keeping the marriage going - not just one person's role. This marriage was the perfect check point and reminder. Great for anyone that is married or considering marriage.
FIVE*****
Sitting in the theatre filled with people trying to find seats for a non-secular movie was great in and of its self, but then the movie began. It had me from "hello". I laughed, almost cried, was reminded of things I have been through or things friends have been through and of things I KNOW I don't want to go through. You know? So hard. This movie deals with marital infidelity through Internet porn, materialism, flirtation, selfishness, lack or respect, complete disregard for one another, and love only for self. Ultimately it deals with each person's relationship with Christ. It hits each of these subjects head on - does not back away or pussyfoot around. I really appreciated the message and what I took away.
I have never had a marriage that has suffered due to Internet or any other porn, but have known those that have. My marital restoration was from alcoholism. Not only was my marriage restored, but each of us have grown as Christians - in HUGE ways from having dealt with that issue. We have not had infidelity - but my mom dealt with that and I know its sting and am probably more aware than most of both people's roles in keeping the marriage going - not just one person's role. This marriage was the perfect check point and reminder. Great for anyone that is married or considering marriage.
FIVE*****
Sunday, September 28, 2008
More to Life
This weekend I was blessed with a visit from my mother. It is very rare for my mother to visit any of her children. Why? Who knows? She came for the day about two months ago. Right now I can't remember why - may have been longer than that - the kids have grown since she last saw them if that says anything, but that is not the point. I love my mother dearly and feel very grateful for all she sacrificed for me as a single mother from the time I was nine years old. My dad did not pay child support and was not much support in any other way.
Being on the other side - a parent of three - paying bills, etc. - I can see there are other ways he could have helped out that were not financial, but he didn't as far as I can tell - and I think that is what counts - my mom never said ANYTHING bad about my dad until I got married and started having kids - then it is like a damn opened. But, alas, I digress.
Having my mom visit this weekend was good - but also eye opening for me. I have known for years how negative she is towards all of us (there are three girls and a boy in my bio family) and am just outspoken enough to call her on it. Until the last visit. Since my surgery in December of last year I have put on 32 lbs. Not by choice mind you, but there it is. My husband's mom was the first to be the black dot by telling me about 10 days after my surgery that "now you will put on weight because that is when I started putting on mine." Then I did - and it got worse, and I felt worse, and it got worse, and I became obsessed, and on we went. Then I saw my mom. What makes this bad is my mom only lives 45 min away. Anyway, the first thing she said to me was "how much weight have you put on?" As much as I love and appreciate my mom, this is not what I want to be like with my kids. This really bothered me - I was irritable with her the rest of her visit - angry with her and myself - then this last one. First thing she said when I met her at the car, "how much bigger are you going to get?" Not, "hey, Reeda!" Not, "how are you, Reeda!, or , "so great to see you, Reeda!" No, just weight related statements. So, no wonder it is a focus in my head.
Tonight at church my pastor did a sermon on hurts, letting go of the pain, deaths, deaths of ideas - maybe of relationships, or finances, or jobs, or kids, spouses, marriages, etc. Me - I have been struggling for more than two years (that I have been willing to admit) with an addiction to ice cream and sugar, and food. You ask how this is an issue? Well, it torments me. I think about it constantly. Think if I don't have it I will come out of my skin - can taste it before I get it - know exactly what combinations I need at certain times. Put much thought in to how I am going to obtain it, hide that I got it, get more of it, not share it and then start the cycle over again. It interferes with my walk with Christ. I new this year that this was an area I had not surrendered to God, but really had been deceiving myself about that. Until tonight. Tonight I surrendered. I committed to giving every part of my life to Christ. Not JUST my money, marriage, children, job, home, friends, and family - also my food. Can you believe it is the seemingly most simple thing I am having the most difficult time with. I have spent hours in tears. I have spent lots of money on products, have watched infomercials wondering why it won't work for me - when truly we have to come to Christ as little children. My children ask my permission for almost everything - as they are maturing they know what they can and can't do, say, eat and watch - and when they get out of line I bring them back in. Isn't that they same with God? Don't I love them unconditionally? Doesn't God? I just truly haven't understood that because the love I have been given in my biological family has been tied to other things - performance, food, goodness, etc. I realized this weekend I will never measure up to my mother or fathers standards and expectations here on earth and I choose now to stop feeling guilty about that. I love them, but I only have to please my heavenly Father. I will continue to honor them, but I will not bend over backwards for them anymore. I have my own family that I have to take care of and raise - I am proud of my husband and children and thankful for what Christ has given me even though I am so undeserving. I know He sees so much more in me than I will ever see, but I hope to live up to that beginning today - making good choices for my body. Food and exercise - and cheering on my kids instead of pointing out the obvious each time! So, with Isaiah 43:18-19 in mind, here I grow!
Being on the other side - a parent of three - paying bills, etc. - I can see there are other ways he could have helped out that were not financial, but he didn't as far as I can tell - and I think that is what counts - my mom never said ANYTHING bad about my dad until I got married and started having kids - then it is like a damn opened. But, alas, I digress.
Having my mom visit this weekend was good - but also eye opening for me. I have known for years how negative she is towards all of us (there are three girls and a boy in my bio family) and am just outspoken enough to call her on it. Until the last visit. Since my surgery in December of last year I have put on 32 lbs. Not by choice mind you, but there it is. My husband's mom was the first to be the black dot by telling me about 10 days after my surgery that "now you will put on weight because that is when I started putting on mine." Then I did - and it got worse, and I felt worse, and it got worse, and I became obsessed, and on we went. Then I saw my mom. What makes this bad is my mom only lives 45 min away. Anyway, the first thing she said to me was "how much weight have you put on?" As much as I love and appreciate my mom, this is not what I want to be like with my kids. This really bothered me - I was irritable with her the rest of her visit - angry with her and myself - then this last one. First thing she said when I met her at the car, "how much bigger are you going to get?" Not, "hey, Reeda!" Not, "how are you, Reeda!, or , "so great to see you, Reeda!" No, just weight related statements. So, no wonder it is a focus in my head.
Tonight at church my pastor did a sermon on hurts, letting go of the pain, deaths, deaths of ideas - maybe of relationships, or finances, or jobs, or kids, spouses, marriages, etc. Me - I have been struggling for more than two years (that I have been willing to admit) with an addiction to ice cream and sugar, and food. You ask how this is an issue? Well, it torments me. I think about it constantly. Think if I don't have it I will come out of my skin - can taste it before I get it - know exactly what combinations I need at certain times. Put much thought in to how I am going to obtain it, hide that I got it, get more of it, not share it and then start the cycle over again. It interferes with my walk with Christ. I new this year that this was an area I had not surrendered to God, but really had been deceiving myself about that. Until tonight. Tonight I surrendered. I committed to giving every part of my life to Christ. Not JUST my money, marriage, children, job, home, friends, and family - also my food. Can you believe it is the seemingly most simple thing I am having the most difficult time with. I have spent hours in tears. I have spent lots of money on products, have watched infomercials wondering why it won't work for me - when truly we have to come to Christ as little children. My children ask my permission for almost everything - as they are maturing they know what they can and can't do, say, eat and watch - and when they get out of line I bring them back in. Isn't that they same with God? Don't I love them unconditionally? Doesn't God? I just truly haven't understood that because the love I have been given in my biological family has been tied to other things - performance, food, goodness, etc. I realized this weekend I will never measure up to my mother or fathers standards and expectations here on earth and I choose now to stop feeling guilty about that. I love them, but I only have to please my heavenly Father. I will continue to honor them, but I will not bend over backwards for them anymore. I have my own family that I have to take care of and raise - I am proud of my husband and children and thankful for what Christ has given me even though I am so undeserving. I know He sees so much more in me than I will ever see, but I hope to live up to that beginning today - making good choices for my body. Food and exercise - and cheering on my kids instead of pointing out the obvious each time! So, with Isaiah 43:18-19 in mind, here I grow!
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Food
For me FOOD really is a four letter word.
Seriously - how many self help books, diets, diet medications, etc. are there out there for those like me that simply love food (especially sweets and breads) to the point of getting their child out of bed at 8 o'clock at night to get them to go to the store - why? you ask - because you are already in your pj's - and they are pj's - and your child's look like their day clothes (what does that say?) and they can go in for you and get away with it.
HAD to have that ice cream. I know - not many, huh? Was really doing so well - I have probably spent more time praying about and trying to do something about this issue in the last year of my life more than almost anything else.
I have joined an excercise class on Saturdays as a small group from my church - truly love this group. The leader is like the epitome if what I would like my body to look like - only mine is about 7" shorter than hers :D
Today I can say I am trying - but maybe that is part of the overall problem - have been told that it appears to be a spiritual issue for me - I have, to date - completed Eat Right, Weight Watchers, and going to a doctor for medication and education.
Seriously - at this point I am quite the expert on calories, fat, protein, what amount I should take in - what amount I need to burn off - how many steps I should walk a day - etc.
So what is my problem?
Well - I like my tv - I like the table - I like the ice cream - I love to celebrate and mourn with food - I like just about everything that is bad for me that is socially acceptable - haven't ever tried alcohol so don't count that - And my list of what I don't like goes like this -
Don't like getting up early to excercise, don't like being this big, don't like failing, don't like being this big - don't like being tired
Was challenged the other day by a statement made - "You are telling yourself that you are wearing the weight well"
Really? Am I? Maybe so - Really hate to look at it that way.
So, I am trying something revolutionary - Absolutely nothing
No counting calories, no restricting myself, no saying I can't have that - but also recognizing my fleshly weakness - ice cream - exhaustion - do you know I find myself sitting up to eat because I am tired? What sense does that make? Why don't I just go to bed?
Probably because I want to eat - what a vicious cycle!!!
In addition to letting go of what the world says and focusing on what God says - WOW!!
How simple............yes - and hopefully I will grow and change in ALL ways - grow spiritually, tone up and shrink physically and be able to proclaim - I was changed by the grace and strength of GOD - not Jenny, Weight wathchers, nutrisystem, etc........
I am not perfect, but I have been set FREE!!! Galatians 5:1
Seriously - how many self help books, diets, diet medications, etc. are there out there for those like me that simply love food (especially sweets and breads) to the point of getting their child out of bed at 8 o'clock at night to get them to go to the store - why? you ask - because you are already in your pj's - and they are pj's - and your child's look like their day clothes (what does that say?) and they can go in for you and get away with it.
HAD to have that ice cream. I know - not many, huh? Was really doing so well - I have probably spent more time praying about and trying to do something about this issue in the last year of my life more than almost anything else.
I have joined an excercise class on Saturdays as a small group from my church - truly love this group. The leader is like the epitome if what I would like my body to look like - only mine is about 7" shorter than hers :D
Today I can say I am trying - but maybe that is part of the overall problem - have been told that it appears to be a spiritual issue for me - I have, to date - completed Eat Right, Weight Watchers, and going to a doctor for medication and education.
Seriously - at this point I am quite the expert on calories, fat, protein, what amount I should take in - what amount I need to burn off - how many steps I should walk a day - etc.
So what is my problem?
Well - I like my tv - I like the table - I like the ice cream - I love to celebrate and mourn with food - I like just about everything that is bad for me that is socially acceptable - haven't ever tried alcohol so don't count that - And my list of what I don't like goes like this -
Don't like getting up early to excercise, don't like being this big, don't like failing, don't like being this big - don't like being tired
Was challenged the other day by a statement made - "You are telling yourself that you are wearing the weight well"
Really? Am I? Maybe so - Really hate to look at it that way.
So, I am trying something revolutionary - Absolutely nothing
No counting calories, no restricting myself, no saying I can't have that - but also recognizing my fleshly weakness - ice cream - exhaustion - do you know I find myself sitting up to eat because I am tired? What sense does that make? Why don't I just go to bed?
Probably because I want to eat - what a vicious cycle!!!
In addition to letting go of what the world says and focusing on what God says - WOW!!
How simple............yes - and hopefully I will grow and change in ALL ways - grow spiritually, tone up and shrink physically and be able to proclaim - I was changed by the grace and strength of GOD - not Jenny, Weight wathchers, nutrisystem, etc........
I am not perfect, but I have been set FREE!!! Galatians 5:1
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Music
Music is probably the main way my soul hears from God -
Thanks to my Grandmother on my mom's side music was a vital part of my life from a very young age. GM could play the piano soooo well and would have my siblings and I sing every day she was with us on a visit. She also had us singing in her church any time we went to visit her.
The Gaither family was a huge influence on what we sang - Down by the Creekbank was my personal favorite as well as certain hymns she would do.
Anyway - even though God did not gift me with the ability to carry a tune in a bucket, He did give to me an awesome love of music - all kinds of music, but especially music that told stories - hymns, country, Christian, - anything.
I also love to move - again - I can't actually dance well, but I do have rhythm. That is something I took for granted until I met my husband (love you honey!). Really did believe everybody could move to music. He tries - unfortunately he is usually one step behind. But, you know what - the beauty is he tries! Just like I try to sing - I am always a couple of notes off, but I give it all I've got! Isn't that what God asks of us? To give it all we have? Everything?
In Ephesians 6:7 Paul is instructing us to do EVERYTHING as if we are doing so unto the Lord.
I hear that as not just work - but everything we do - because we have the ability to build up the Kingdom of Heaven even with what we may see as the smallest of deeds - like spending that moment listening to our child's story, or looking at their comic they made - or taking that meal to a neighbor or person in need - even though you may be busy - spending a couple of hours out of your week to serve the less fortunate - not just meet the needs of your own family (not that there is anything wrong with that, but sometimes we can become so focused on ourselves - even for good and necessary things - that we forget that God called us to do more - serve others).
I have trouble balancing at times - I don't want to serve so much that I neglect my own family's needs, but I also don't want to stand before Christ one day and have Him ask me why I didn't meet the needs of those I came in contact with when prompted by the Spirit.
The Bible also says in Galatians that we will be known by our fruit - if there is no fruit - there is no life. So, if we are Christians and LIVING in Christ, then we should be bearing the fruits of the Spirit - Love, Joy, Peace, Patience, Kindness, Gentleness, and Self Control.
Honestly some of these fruits come off me in abundance and others I am still trying to allow Christ to cultivate inside me so I can share them.
So, whether you can sing and dance (or not), or paint, or serve, or pray, or befriend - do whatever you are called to do with your WHOLE HEART as unto the Lord!
Your blessings will be plentiful!
I encourage you to read Galatians and Ephesians today!
Thanks to my Grandmother on my mom's side music was a vital part of my life from a very young age. GM could play the piano soooo well and would have my siblings and I sing every day she was with us on a visit. She also had us singing in her church any time we went to visit her.
The Gaither family was a huge influence on what we sang - Down by the Creekbank was my personal favorite as well as certain hymns she would do.
Anyway - even though God did not gift me with the ability to carry a tune in a bucket, He did give to me an awesome love of music - all kinds of music, but especially music that told stories - hymns, country, Christian, - anything.
I also love to move - again - I can't actually dance well, but I do have rhythm. That is something I took for granted until I met my husband (love you honey!). Really did believe everybody could move to music. He tries - unfortunately he is usually one step behind. But, you know what - the beauty is he tries! Just like I try to sing - I am always a couple of notes off, but I give it all I've got! Isn't that what God asks of us? To give it all we have? Everything?
In Ephesians 6:7 Paul is instructing us to do EVERYTHING as if we are doing so unto the Lord.
I hear that as not just work - but everything we do - because we have the ability to build up the Kingdom of Heaven even with what we may see as the smallest of deeds - like spending that moment listening to our child's story, or looking at their comic they made - or taking that meal to a neighbor or person in need - even though you may be busy - spending a couple of hours out of your week to serve the less fortunate - not just meet the needs of your own family (not that there is anything wrong with that, but sometimes we can become so focused on ourselves - even for good and necessary things - that we forget that God called us to do more - serve others).
I have trouble balancing at times - I don't want to serve so much that I neglect my own family's needs, but I also don't want to stand before Christ one day and have Him ask me why I didn't meet the needs of those I came in contact with when prompted by the Spirit.
The Bible also says in Galatians that we will be known by our fruit - if there is no fruit - there is no life. So, if we are Christians and LIVING in Christ, then we should be bearing the fruits of the Spirit - Love, Joy, Peace, Patience, Kindness, Gentleness, and Self Control.
Honestly some of these fruits come off me in abundance and others I am still trying to allow Christ to cultivate inside me so I can share them.
So, whether you can sing and dance (or not), or paint, or serve, or pray, or befriend - do whatever you are called to do with your WHOLE HEART as unto the Lord!
Your blessings will be plentiful!
I encourage you to read Galatians and Ephesians today!
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Frustration
Have you ever worked on something - poured your heart into it for that day and then lose it? Actually have it disappear - and no amount of searching brings it back.
Okay - that is me today.
Heartfelt and compelling ( I think) post - VANISHED! somehow it edited to only a few words and then went away.
I am choosing not to be frustrated. I know that is easier said than done, but I will not be frustrated.
Just know that God continues to move in me, change my heart, and change my life - I am continuing to choose Him daily and am learning that trusting Him completely with EVERYTHING is exactly what He demands of my life -
I don't want to be that child in the desert roaming because I choose not to listen.
I am thankful for His patience and grace and love for me.
I will today choose to serve Him, trust Him, lean on Him no matter how difficult it may feel at the time - Philippians 4:13 assures me I CAN do ALL things through Christ who gives me strength - He knows I can't do it on my own strength - I am weak and that is exactly when He is strong if I allow it -
But go to the verse before that one - read it - Philippians 4:12.....I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in poverty or wealth.....
I am in the process of being taught that secret.
No matter what - to be content - not to conform to this world - but to continuously be transformed through knowing Him more.
Not to worry about what others may think of me, my appearance, my children or any other worldly measuring point - to be content with what He has for me - right now - because if I am always looking ahead or behind - I miss the now part of life.
Plans are good, but God has the ultimate plan for us - He says so in Jeremiah 29:11- I so love that verse! What a great reminder!
So, as I continue on my journey in life - I am learning that there is nothing more important than my relationship with Christ and what I do with that relationship.
Do I go to Him when upset, happy, mourning, celebrating? Or do I turn to friends or food?
Do I ignore my time with Him to watch TV or sleep later? Do I keep Him all to myself and never tell others about Him? or is it really that I talk about Him, but when others look at me they think it must just be lip service because they see no difference in me?
This is just a revelation I am having about me, my relationship with Christ - what I consider more important than Him and why I will never understand the secret in Philippians 4:12 if I do not better know the Author.
Here I GROW!!! Praise God!
Okay - that is me today.
Heartfelt and compelling ( I think) post - VANISHED! somehow it edited to only a few words and then went away.
I am choosing not to be frustrated. I know that is easier said than done, but I will not be frustrated.
Just know that God continues to move in me, change my heart, and change my life - I am continuing to choose Him daily and am learning that trusting Him completely with EVERYTHING is exactly what He demands of my life -
I don't want to be that child in the desert roaming because I choose not to listen.
I am thankful for His patience and grace and love for me.
I will today choose to serve Him, trust Him, lean on Him no matter how difficult it may feel at the time - Philippians 4:13 assures me I CAN do ALL things through Christ who gives me strength - He knows I can't do it on my own strength - I am weak and that is exactly when He is strong if I allow it -
But go to the verse before that one - read it - Philippians 4:12.....I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in poverty or wealth.....
I am in the process of being taught that secret.
No matter what - to be content - not to conform to this world - but to continuously be transformed through knowing Him more.
Not to worry about what others may think of me, my appearance, my children or any other worldly measuring point - to be content with what He has for me - right now - because if I am always looking ahead or behind - I miss the now part of life.
Plans are good, but God has the ultimate plan for us - He says so in Jeremiah 29:11- I so love that verse! What a great reminder!
So, as I continue on my journey in life - I am learning that there is nothing more important than my relationship with Christ and what I do with that relationship.
Do I go to Him when upset, happy, mourning, celebrating? Or do I turn to friends or food?
Do I ignore my time with Him to watch TV or sleep later? Do I keep Him all to myself and never tell others about Him? or is it really that I talk about Him, but when others look at me they think it must just be lip service because they see no difference in me?
This is just a revelation I am having about me, my relationship with Christ - what I consider more important than Him and why I will never understand the secret in Philippians 4:12 if I do not better know the Author.
Here I GROW!!! Praise God!
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
New Days!
So, here I am almost three months later - updating. This summer has been fabulous! The kids were all kept at our home by a babysitter - many adventures were had: McWane Center for Science, Alabama Adventure, Library Reading Club, Wednesday free movies, and lots of play (and cleaning - this they didn't like so much!).
I was also lead by the Spirit to lead a church small group - fabulous! Now even more ministry opportunities have come from that.
I have started a new job. LOVE IT! Lots more time with my husband and children.
Poodleduck started Kindergarten this year. It has been so great listening to him and watching him grow. He makes friends with girls easily - maybe even a little too easily - but he really likes girls :) He held hands with a girl during naptime the first day of school - "What is her name?" we all asked him - He shrugged and said "I don't know, but she is my friend". How simplistic and how sweet - It reminded me of how complicated we "grown ups" try and make everything be.
So much has happened in my life personally and in the lives of friends I have that I try very hard not to get bogged down in the details and focus on the now - Sometimes I think I do this to an extreme and sometimes I don't get up far enough out of the trees to see the forest - God is doing such awesome work in me right now.
I give God all the praise and glory for everything good about me, my marriage, my children, and my possessions. The bad I ask Him to help me with and learn daily more about relying on Him and His word - not my "feelings" - Helping my kids navigate the daily situations is soooo not easy, but I trust in God that what He says is true - Philippians 4:13; Romans 8:28; Jeremiah 29:11 - and on and on and on. He gives constant reminders of His plans, His past accomplishments and the glory of the now.
We have family coming in at the end of the month - we are all so excited they are coming! Lots of fun planned for us all - the girls have a game on Saturday, but Sunday after church we plan to take them to Alabama Adventure! How great is that - if you haven't been and live in the area - now is a great time because tickets for both parks are only $19.99.
Have a fabulous week (month or three :) )!
Hebrews 13:2
I was also lead by the Spirit to lead a church small group - fabulous! Now even more ministry opportunities have come from that.
I have started a new job. LOVE IT! Lots more time with my husband and children.
Poodleduck started Kindergarten this year. It has been so great listening to him and watching him grow. He makes friends with girls easily - maybe even a little too easily - but he really likes girls :) He held hands with a girl during naptime the first day of school - "What is her name?" we all asked him - He shrugged and said "I don't know, but she is my friend". How simplistic and how sweet - It reminded me of how complicated we "grown ups" try and make everything be.
So much has happened in my life personally and in the lives of friends I have that I try very hard not to get bogged down in the details and focus on the now - Sometimes I think I do this to an extreme and sometimes I don't get up far enough out of the trees to see the forest - God is doing such awesome work in me right now.
I give God all the praise and glory for everything good about me, my marriage, my children, and my possessions. The bad I ask Him to help me with and learn daily more about relying on Him and His word - not my "feelings" - Helping my kids navigate the daily situations is soooo not easy, but I trust in God that what He says is true - Philippians 4:13; Romans 8:28; Jeremiah 29:11 - and on and on and on. He gives constant reminders of His plans, His past accomplishments and the glory of the now.
We have family coming in at the end of the month - we are all so excited they are coming! Lots of fun planned for us all - the girls have a game on Saturday, but Sunday after church we plan to take them to Alabama Adventure! How great is that - if you haven't been and live in the area - now is a great time because tickets for both parks are only $19.99.
Have a fabulous week (month or three :) )!
Hebrews 13:2
Friday, May 30, 2008
Life Lessons
Where oh where to begin? I have so much to update - as usual!! Poodleduck has been in a study for his EGE - things weren't so good the first month, but oh, so much better now! God is great!! I am so blessed to be involved in a small group at my church that teaches the women in it, not only how to better provide for their families by getting the best deals on groceries - but that also teaches us about relationships, prayer, and how God works in even the most minute ways if we stop long enough to pay attention.
I have prayerfully been considering for months about leaving my current job of 7 years. My husband and I feel it is time. Not because I "hate my job", but seriously because my job interferes with my ability to be the best mom and wife I possibly can. Not only do I depend on my job for my "security" and "identity", but also because in my heart of hearts I think I have really been thinking this is what God's plan for my life is. Not so - He has SO MUCH more in store for me and my family. I do not have to be just in one place or at one job to touch the lives of others and make a difference in His kingdom. How great is that? I used to think I had to go off to another country to be a "missionary" - finally I realized there was a mission field right here in my own country - literally my own back yard - went into social work for that purpose - to be mobile and to touch the lives of others. Of course looking back I think I could have done this as anything and made a little more money:) Kidding - I do think God's intention is to bless us - just like the promise in Jeremiah 29 - His plan is to prosper us....... I just have to be willing to be used and then use the gifts He has given me wisely - One of the most precious gifts He has bestowed is my husband and my children. I used to not feel this way - I used to really look forward to going to work - now I look forward to talking with my kids - learning about their friends - teaching them what I know and learning from them. Sometimes fun - sometimes not!! I also am being stretched as a wife - to grow and submit and learn more about what God's plan for the wife is - so all this rambling to say - God is really growing me - like all growing - there is sometimes pain - and sometimes having to look in the mirror and see that I have grown in the wrong direction! and then get back in line - I am truly walking in His grace and covering daily - - He constantly provides friends and songs and sermons and calls to remind me and put me back right where I need to be or sometimes to push me forward to where He has me going. I am LOVING this!!! So - all this to say - I am saying goodbye to a much loved and very emotionally heavy job - to move on to an even better calling for this season - MOM/WIFE
Wish me luck and blessings as I try to follow HIS path in all of this and truly walk in my faith!
I have prayerfully been considering for months about leaving my current job of 7 years. My husband and I feel it is time. Not because I "hate my job", but seriously because my job interferes with my ability to be the best mom and wife I possibly can. Not only do I depend on my job for my "security" and "identity", but also because in my heart of hearts I think I have really been thinking this is what God's plan for my life is. Not so - He has SO MUCH more in store for me and my family. I do not have to be just in one place or at one job to touch the lives of others and make a difference in His kingdom. How great is that? I used to think I had to go off to another country to be a "missionary" - finally I realized there was a mission field right here in my own country - literally my own back yard - went into social work for that purpose - to be mobile and to touch the lives of others. Of course looking back I think I could have done this as anything and made a little more money:) Kidding - I do think God's intention is to bless us - just like the promise in Jeremiah 29 - His plan is to prosper us....... I just have to be willing to be used and then use the gifts He has given me wisely - One of the most precious gifts He has bestowed is my husband and my children. I used to not feel this way - I used to really look forward to going to work - now I look forward to talking with my kids - learning about their friends - teaching them what I know and learning from them. Sometimes fun - sometimes not!! I also am being stretched as a wife - to grow and submit and learn more about what God's plan for the wife is - so all this rambling to say - God is really growing me - like all growing - there is sometimes pain - and sometimes having to look in the mirror and see that I have grown in the wrong direction! and then get back in line - I am truly walking in His grace and covering daily - - He constantly provides friends and songs and sermons and calls to remind me and put me back right where I need to be or sometimes to push me forward to where He has me going. I am LOVING this!!! So - all this to say - I am saying goodbye to a much loved and very emotionally heavy job - to move on to an even better calling for this season - MOM/WIFE
Wish me luck and blessings as I try to follow HIS path in all of this and truly walk in my faith!
Sunday, March 30, 2008
Living Life
i am truly amazed at the ones that are committed to daily updates!! i just do not have that kind of time - or maybe it is a lack of discipline? No, I prefer to look at it as just "living life".
Right now life has been interesting - I am back at work after having surgery in Dec. The kids are all doing well - Poodleduck has been having issues with his eosiniphilic gastroenteritis. He has lost two pounds over the past couple of months. I am trying not to worry about that since the doctors are not too concerned at this point. Truthfully - I look back and am reminded of how far he has come anyway - from a failure to thrive baby and toddler - to a 40lb. five year old! How awesome is that? He has been accepted into a study for a new medicine Glaxo Smith Kline has developed for his issues - we are thrilled - maybe a little apprehensive, but mainly believing God for a miracle!! Maybe this is it - who knows?
I am looking at other jobs. Ones that will allow me to be home with the kids more. I really need to work financially, but also know that I need to be at home for the kids - especially as they are getting older.
I continue to struggle with submission - and probably with trust also - nothing comes too easily for me in those areas. I am not proud of this - just hoping that God will continue to shower His mercy on my marriage and family.
Hope everyone reading this is doing well -
Right now life has been interesting - I am back at work after having surgery in Dec. The kids are all doing well - Poodleduck has been having issues with his eosiniphilic gastroenteritis. He has lost two pounds over the past couple of months. I am trying not to worry about that since the doctors are not too concerned at this point. Truthfully - I look back and am reminded of how far he has come anyway - from a failure to thrive baby and toddler - to a 40lb. five year old! How awesome is that? He has been accepted into a study for a new medicine Glaxo Smith Kline has developed for his issues - we are thrilled - maybe a little apprehensive, but mainly believing God for a miracle!! Maybe this is it - who knows?
I am looking at other jobs. Ones that will allow me to be home with the kids more. I really need to work financially, but also know that I need to be at home for the kids - especially as they are getting older.
I continue to struggle with submission - and probably with trust also - nothing comes too easily for me in those areas. I am not proud of this - just hoping that God will continue to shower His mercy on my marriage and family.
Hope everyone reading this is doing well -
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