Saturday, December 22, 2007

So Much to Learn!!

As many of you may or may not know - I am sometimes scatterbrained. For a long time I had lost my password - couldn't get on the blog - life was mundane so I didn't much care - no, I am not blonde (anymore :) ) The password came to me the other night - so here I am.

It has been a very crazy few weeks in our household. Boo has been sick - as well as Poodleduck. Moo Moo has been great - after struggling with the decision to address her ADD - we took her to a doctor and after filling out the questionaires and getting the teacher feedback she is now taking Concerta (so we don't have to have the school involved) and doing GREAT!!! She thanked me about two weeks of being on it - she said her "focus medicine" is really helping her to listen and not to fidget in class - I was saddened and thrilled at the same time. Sad that my ego got in the way of medicine to begin with and that she even needs it - but also thrilled that she spontaneously could tell a difference. I completely give total praise to God for the peace he has given this decision. We don't advertise to people about her taking it, but it is always so interesting to hear the comments on the changes in her - all for the good - like wow, Moo has completed her homework without being asked, Moo sure is being quiet (as opposed to being the loudest mind you), and her teacher commented to her that she is doing a great job focusing lately - Moo shared about the "focus doctor" and her medicine. I love this child - she is kind, creative, giving, and sure of what she wants. She is a fabulous mix of me and my husband with plenty of her own personality mixed in. Her sister and brother are loved just as much, but have such different personalities - Boo is intellectual, shy, sometimes unsure, very maternal, still figuring out what she likes - it is great watching her grow - she just turned ten. Poodleduck is all boy and four years old - loving life, bugs, guts, and all things gross, but soooo loving and caring. I could not ask for a more wonderful family.

My husband and I have now been married 11 years. No - it hasn't all been fun and games - but at this point I am very much in love, sometimes a little frustrated, and more blessed than you can imagine by God with a fabulous husband and wonderful children. Everything he and I have been through these past years builds us up and helps us appreciate the good, and get through the bad. He has grown so much in his relationship with Christ - I have been so amazed and appreciative. I still struggle with submission, but daily give my life again to submitting first to Christ, second to my husband, and third to bosses, leaders, etc. I am not perfect - probably will never be. I try to go a little easier on myself, love what I have, be thankful for my friends and family and when I get out of order confess it and move on. I truly believe this is the reason God has allowed me to be a good employee, working on being a good friend, sister, daughter, mother, and wife. I will let you know how it goes.

About a month ago my sister called to let me know that my grandfather (mother's dad) had been taken to the hospital the night before - doctors thought it was a heart attack. It was. You would have to know my grandfather to understand what a shock this was. He has only been in a hospital one other time in his life overnight - eight years ago for a heart valve replacement, but otherwise healthy. He has just turned 89, can be demanding, but loves us deeply. Because I was having surgery the next week and would not be able to help out any after that for six weeks, I volunteered to stay the first night with him in the hospital. It was fabulous to be able to spend precious time with him. Listening to him talk about growing up in the depression, meeting my grandmother, and what his specific prayers are for my family. See, he and my grandmother (she went on to be with the Lord in '99) have been my leading examples of how to spend time with God. My mom loves God, but did not have time to lead us in devotions nightly or teach us to pray - God provided my grandparents for that. They instilled memorizing verses, turning to God for everything, spending time daily with God in Bible reading and prayer. Going to church with them opened up new ways to praise God since they are Pentecostal and I attended a Baptist church. I was very well rounded in my religious upbringing to say the least. I did not always appreciate my grandparents, even resented them at times, but as with anything else in life got to a point where looking back made me appreciate them even more. Thankfully God opened my eyes in time to tell my grandmother when I was a first year college student - I wrote to her and thanked her for guiding me and loving me even when I was a brat!! This past month I spent time with grandaddy and made sure he knew how much he has meant to me and how much I thank God for putting him in my life. He came through open heart surgery great - is home now - and quite demanding from what I hear :), but even if he is taken tomorrow I am glad I took the time to go over and spend some much needed time with him. He will never be forgotten since God has allowed me to have children to pass the teachings on to. That is all we really have anyway - How we live. By the way - check out the new song by Point of Grace -"how we live (turn up the music)" Truly my favorite!!!

Go hug your children, kiss your husband (wife), and get on your knees to thank God for all He has blessed you with and brought you through. Focus on Christ and you can't go wrong!!!

I wish you all the best this Christmas season and beyond!!