Yesterday

Too often I think of "yesterday".  "Yesterday we had fun", "yesterday I didn't have grey hair", "yesterday I weighed less", and on and on.  I read a C.S. Lewis quote the other day, "Has this world been so kind to you that you should leave with regret?  There are better things ahead than any we leave behind." 
I have heard of "seeing your life flash before your eyes" and things like that when something tragic, or almost tragic, happens.  Yesterday, I experienced a near death experience.  Well, as near as one can come before acutally being injured or killed anyway.  I am traveling down a road in my town to get my oldest from play practice at school.  There were two men jogging on the other side of the street.  The street is winding but not too bad.  All of a sudden they jump further off the road as a car comes careening around the bend - the car misses them (barely) and swerves - heading sideways in the curve and straight at me.  At this point there is horrible screeching of tires and me just sitting there thinking, "this isn't really happening.  I am going to die." No other thoughts - no life flash - who knows - maybe that was because it was not my time to go. 
At the last second she corrects but has lost control - goes past me, hits the phone pole and goes straight into the ditch and hits the boulder. There is a loud pop as her windows shatter and her car crumples.  The joggers and myself are in shock - but finally start moving - heading up the road - Then it hits me - they may be dead, I could have been dead - those men could have been dead - and then Amy Grant starts singing in my head - Angels Watching Over Me (after reading my other posts you know enough to know my brain is strange at times).  Anyway - with Amy singing - I dial 911 and think of my kids - who would take care of them?  Who would step up when my husband is not capable right now?  My mom and sisters have too much of their own stuff - my brother has just started, really, his married life - no kids yet - and my dad wouldn't be able to either - I think my husband's daughter and her husband would step in - but would the court give them problems? there is no life insurance on me - I wonder if they can get social security?  All while on hold with 911. 
Finally, I get to find the girls in the car are not only alive - by the sheer grace of God Almighty!, but are completely uninjured!  She is a teen, late for practice, and, "so sorry".  I was not real sympathetic.  She almost killed three people and upended so many many lives for being late.
Wow! what an eye opener for a chronic speeder like me. 
I don't have to answer those questions today that came up yesterday, but I do know that my heart is praying even more for a breakthrough with my husband and his condition - that he would completely surrender and humble himself to the Lord.  I don't want to have to think about the questions from yesterday.....at least not today.