Food

For me FOOD really is a four letter word.
Seriously - how many self help books, diets, diet medications, etc. are there out there for those like me that simply love food (especially sweets and breads) to the point of getting their child out of bed at 8 o'clock at night to get them to go to the store - why? you ask - because you are already in your pj's - and they are pj's - and your child's look like their day clothes (what does that say?) and they can go in for you and get away with it.
HAD to have that ice cream. I know - not many, huh? Was really doing so well - I have probably spent more time praying about and trying to do something about this issue in the last year of my life more than almost anything else.
I have joined an excercise class on Saturdays as a small group from my church - truly love this group. The leader is like the epitome if what I would like my body to look like - only mine is about 7" shorter than hers :D
Today I can say I am trying - but maybe that is part of the overall problem - have been told that it appears to be a spiritual issue for me - I have, to date - completed Eat Right, Weight Watchers, and going to a doctor for medication and education.
Seriously - at this point I am quite the expert on calories, fat, protein, what amount I should take in - what amount I need to burn off - how many steps I should walk a day - etc.
So what is my problem?
Well - I like my tv - I like the table - I like the ice cream - I love to celebrate and mourn with food - I like just about everything that is bad for me that is socially acceptable - haven't ever tried alcohol so don't count that - And my list of what I don't like goes like this -
Don't like getting up early to excercise, don't like being this big, don't like failing, don't like being this big - don't like being tired
Was challenged the other day by a statement made - "You are telling yourself that you are wearing the weight well"
Really? Am I? Maybe so - Really hate to look at it that way.
So, I am trying something revolutionary - Absolutely nothing
No counting calories, no restricting myself, no saying I can't have that - but also recognizing my fleshly weakness - ice cream - exhaustion - do you know I find myself sitting up to eat because I am tired? What sense does that make? Why don't I just go to bed?
Probably because I want to eat - what a vicious cycle!!!
In addition to letting go of what the world says and focusing on what God says - WOW!!
How simple............yes - and hopefully I will grow and change in ALL ways - grow spiritually, tone up and shrink physically and be able to proclaim - I was changed by the grace and strength of GOD - not Jenny, Weight wathchers, nutrisystem, etc........
I am not perfect, but I have been set FREE!!! Galatians 5:1