Week 6

So, I am at my halfway point in the program and the scale reflects a total loss of 20 pounds. I am so thankful for what I have lost and all that I know I will lose in the future. I'm more of a 'sprinter' than a ' 'marathon-er' (I know - I make up words- oh well). Have always been more of a quick fix type person. This time I find myself constantly repeating,  "one day at a time, no other gods before me, choosing today to not serve my flesh, it's the fire that refines..." I could go on, but you get it. Between marriage, kids, work, and health I find I put my planning (me essentially) on the back burner. I'm sure that deep down I believe my crown will be bigger if I do 😜 

I see that failure to plan is planning to fail. Even when I do plan and prepare good for my body foods I sometimes go to eat it and get jealous of the one eating the giant bread bowl with broccoli and cheddar soup from panera. So, I forgo the good and swan dive into that green creamy goodness followed by a bite of thick white gluey bread. *le sigh*

That swan dive was followed the next day by a trip to Krispy Kreme. Two dozen donuts later I walk away with not the item I went for - a gift card. I ate at least four of those 24. Then I suggested Taco Bell the next evening. Yep. Taco Bell with their spicy chicken frito slider and cinnamon goodness in the form of Cinnabon bites. Head into Sunday and it was mini peanut butter eggs. 

My sleep became awful again, my cravings intensified instead of satisfied, and I was bloated and gross feeling. Monday was hard. Each day I have confessed what I am feeling to my merciful Heavenly Father, and forced my flesh to take a back seat. 

So, while this week wasn't stellar for making good choices, I have once again been reminded of mercy and grace. 

Here is to week 7 coming up!